I just really fucking hate myself. Every time I look in the mirror or at my body I just want to die. I can't help but break down into tears over how fucking gross I am and I hate people telling me I don't. I feel like I'm being lied to every time I get a compliment and it fucking sucks. My scars are fading and it my biggest trigger. I don't want them to go. Its the only part of me that shows my past and how badly I'm hurt! I wish I had the courage to press down harder.